Last night I, along with three Women, sat together with a Quichua Medicine man at his cabana in the forest.
We spent the day preparing our minds and our bodies for the journey through ayahuasca.
This is what I can remember from my experience. But first, a short intro to Ayahuasca for those unfamiliar. Ayahuasca is a sacred tea that has been used for thousands of years in the Amazon by the indigenous peoples. It's key component is DMT or Dymethyltriptamine. A substance found naturally occurring in our bodies, and is only released in small amount when we dream or when we die. This psychoactive medicine allows a person to heal from past trauma, heal from addictions as well as learn about the nature of life and death. The medicine men use it in their shamanism to learn about new plants in the Amazon as well as journey outside their bodies.
The bitter tasting tea is a tough pill to swallow. Jonas, the medicine man, talked about what to expect during the experience and said he will be there to help with any bad spirits or troubles. He said the tool of ayahuasca was passed down to him, to help people.
After I drank a cup, it took about maybe half an hour before I started to feel something. First small visions came, fractals, ants, spirits. Then it came on like a ton of bricks. I was rocketed out of my body into a completely foreign world. The spirit world. My thought at this point was how everything was connected. There was no separation between myself, what I was experiencing, and what was happening in the forest around me. I remember, when cars would pass by on the road not too far away, we could sense it before we could hear it. The entire forest around us reacted to this intense shift in energy. If you started to have inhibitions about what was happening, you would throw up. I learned quickly it was best to totally surrender. And keep breathing! The breath was my life raft in a sea of consciousness. It came in waves, of intensity, then peace, intensity, then peace. What was interesting was the ebb and flow of our groups journey was amazingly in synch. I was more fond of the peace, but I realized, like the land of the living, was just an experience.
We are so incredibly privileged to have a body. What can be called the land of the living is a temporary dream. Bit of a paradox. A creation of concepts and language created by humans. We are nature. I can say, I am no longer afraid of death. The only concerning thing was how I will choose to transition back to the spirit world. I was given a choice by the spirits, to stay in the spirit world, or go back to my body and the land of the living. They said, it's always up to us, but only a matter of time before we all must come back to the spirit world. I said I must come back to my body. I have a responsibility to the living people for now. I've only come to learn. The spirits showed me many things, about what it meant to be a human and what the Truth really was. Human hearts are precious and fragile things. It's a work of divine love the way certain spirits are attracted to having a body, dealing with everything that entails, and leaving it in the end.
A part of, at this point, no longer being in my body, I was free to go anywhere. But, I had this note of caution in my mind, that if I get lost out there, I may not be able to find my way back into my body. So, I stayed close to my body, listened to it. They showed me how to care for my body, as temporary as it is.
I started wondering how this experience was going to change me once I came back. We are like babies, us humans. Most of us couldn't care for ourselves outside the culture of processed food, heated homes and automobiles. We are a species on life support.
In the end, I feel incredible amounts of love for every human I have the possibility of creating a connection with. This is an integral part of being human. It's bittersweet, because it's only temporary. If you attach too much to this place, you will have a hard time leaving it. I'm going to make the most of the time I have here in this body.
I love you